So I am now over halfway through my second year at uni – meaning that I am halfway through my degree. To be honest I know when people say that your time in education flies by, but you don’t realise how true it is.
Being this close to the finishing line I’ve begun to question my decision to study Journalism and even gone as far as to wonder why I chose to come to uni at all!
Seeing friends on apprenticeships already making their way up the business ladder and learning within a secure job scares me.
The thought of finishing uni and having a real job scares me.
The thought of no longer having the security of a student load scares me.
Basically, in a nutshell a lot scares me.
Don’t get me wrong I love my course. I enjoy writing creating and learning about the world of news – but I’ve started to doubt if its the career path I want to follow. After my work experience at The Daily Echo – I’m certain that I don’t want to work in newspaper.
But I’m still interested in magazine, broadcast, and online – finding out more about those options.
Because if I don’t want to be a journalist – what do I want to be?
Is it normal to at times doubt your choices – or is everyone else completely sure of what they want to do?
In a seminar the other day our lecturer asked us do complete a little exercise – it wasn’t too serious it simply was an example of making SMART (realistic) goals. We simply had to jot down a 10-year, 5-year, 3-year and 1-year plan; and I didn’t know what to write. I have no idea where I want to be in ten years time and I felt like I was making up my response. Sure I know that in a year I want to have graduated with a 2:1 or first – but other than that, I don’t know.
Am I worrying too much? University is supposed to be the best years of your life – so should I stop worrying and go with the flow?
I’ve just always felt like having a plan is a safe and secure thing. But sometimes I think it’s impossible to plan everything ahead. Maybe you just have to go with the flow.